I have been wanting to do a spending fast for so long. I start with a strong will and determination, until the doubt comes in. Then I write the idea off. I was watching a video of a woman who called it the Year of Gratitude. I like this idea a whole lot more, because the idea of not spending on the basic needs is still there. The difference is that you appreciate all that you already have. I can do that.
I have started this idea already, buy giving thanks for all that I have. I started to say thank you from a feeling of being lost in my soul, and who I was as a person. I have had many changes happen in my life through out the year late 2017, through all of 2018. The uneasiness happen when I met this man, who lived in my building. We started to hang out, went out a couple of times to a movie, but mostly just chilled out at each others place. We had an attraction towards one another. The problem this relationship/lack of many times, opened Pandora’s box for me. So many issues came flooding out of my soul and took over my emotions. I started to have high anxiety, wasn’t sure what to do with myself. I was shaken to my core, and needed to get out of this pain. Reiki was my saving grace along with meditation. Headspace (www.headspce.com) has been such a great inspiration for my heart and soul. Manali who owns Zen For You (www.zenforyou.ca) in Ottawa, has been a great mentor. She opened me up and helped me get through the frustration and pain through Reiki. I did overcome so many of my obstacles. I also have to give credit to my friends Kat, Jen and Stephanie, they both picked my up when I was down. Jen knows the whole story, from beginning until now.
I felt lost in my own home, it didn’t feel like home for a while. I rearranged my flat so many time and for a time that helped. In over a year I have changed my living room three times and bedroom twice. I am so happy to say that know I am very grateful for my home and everything in it. I want to stop thinking about what I don’t have in life, and be grateful for all the wonder people and thing in my life. I am truly blessed.
So this is the starting of the Year of Being Gratitude and cutting out stuff in my life. Along the way I want to keep on bring down my debt. Celebrate all the small wonderful obstacles that I create along the way.
I hope that you will join me on my journey, which will start February 2019.